The best laid plans of mice and men…I had my well laid out plan for all my fall events. I definitely didn’t make room in my time line for tripping and falling and finding myself in the emergency room with a broken wrist. Nor did it fit into my time line to have surgery and be on pain meds and have a cast for six weeks and do physical therapy.
Well that is what is! I have been contemplating the whys and wherefores of this because, as we know, everything happens for a reason. The first thing I noticed was the enormous love and gratitude that rose up inside me. People were incredibly kind and helpful all along the way. It was easy for me to be vulnerable and receive their help. What a gift! That has not always been the case for me. It opened me to even more love and appreciation.
Several of my friends have suggested that I needed to slow down a little and nurture myself more. I’ll go along with that, it rings true. But there are other parts I realized as I contemplated, meditated and journaled. I know that it is time for me to finally let go of the belief, “I can never do enough” and own that my best is good enough and I am enough just as I am.
There is no one I know who would say I lack self-discipline. Most think I have too much. But as I continue to contemplate and journal to find the gift in this, I see that not being disciplined enough is exactly what was happening. I don’t need the discipline to work harder, but in how and when I work and the discipline to give myself enough play time, enough time to do things for others and enough time to reward myself for my hard work.
I’m realizing that the most important place I need discipline, is in “bright shiny object syndrome.” I love to pursue them and they can totally draw me off of my time line. My email in-box is full of bright shiny objects that have stolen so much of my precious time. So I plan to give my inner child a specific limited amount of time to play in that arena as a reward for staying in integrity with my commitments for myself that day (which I plan to keep light.)
I’m also committing to take my time and do everything with more love and joy than ever before. Anita Moorjani, in her book “Dying to Be Me” defines the difference in doing and being. She says that “doing” is action that comes from the mind and is based in struggle and fear. “Being” on the other hand is action that comes from the soul and is driven by passion and love. In action based in “being,” there is room for magic and miracles. I’m afraid I have been much too much in “doing” mode, striving and pushing and not enough in “being” mode. “Whoa” said the universe. “ Where’s the self-love in this? I’ll just give you some time to stop and think about this.”
I invite you to join me in making a commitment to self-love, to more “being” and less “doing.” I know that the more we love ourselves, the more we draw love and favorable conditions into our lives and…as I am finding out, it takes vigilance! Look for the Self-Love Quotient Quiz I’ll be posting tomorrow.
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Beth McKinnon is an empowerment coach. She has helped many, many clients not only heal the wounds that have kept them from going for what they truly want, but also get clear on the outcomes they want for their lives, their compelling vision. Then the action plan begins to flow and the magic begins to happen!
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